Amateur Radio: How I became a Ham

Amateur Radio has open doors to employment opportunities meeting new friends on and off the air, and helped me serve my local community in times of emergency, special events and public awareness.

Communication is the key to recover from any disaster. Amateur radio is a balance where the hobby never interferes with family and job commitments.

The hobby is an enjoying time of talking, learning and teaching to other hams and non hams who may have an interest a like. The education is an asset. There are all types of people from all walks of life coming together with one thing in common-- Amateur Radio.

I enjoy this hobby very much - the hobby has helped me personally to reconnect with people to establish trust, and boost my self esteem.

If you would like to learn more about amateur radio please feel free to e-mail me. Tim_kc6qlv@hotmail.com or at www.arrl.org

(Go to the side bar and find the Hayward Radio Club K6EAG web site.)

Here is my Biography on how I came a ham and got started with the Hayward Radio Club. Enjoy and God Bless. Tim KC6QLV

I was born in 1966 in San Francisco, Ca. I am the youngest of a family of four with one brother and two sisters. I lived in Hayward pretty much my whole life. I got interested in electronics at a young age, my friend Ray Mitchell and I lived around the corner from each other, and at the age of 7 Ray taught me all about the resistor color code and electronics. I went away for high school in Santa Barbara Ca (1981-1985), there I met Rev Alberic Smith OFM WA6IMZ (Now living In Spokane, WA) Fr Alby as we called him operated out of a room on one side of the school property. The property was around 16 acres. Fr. Alby worked 160 meter band by using a random wire stretched from his "Shack" up to the tower and back down to the other side of the property. He made all kinds of contacts in Central and South American countries using CW. He was good, in fact he was too good! It was my first time exposure to the hobby. In 1986- I first got into radio by operating C.B. and after a few years I became bored with it. A lot of my high school friends asked me about earning my amateur radio license since I became a natural about Radio and RF. In 1989 Loma Prieta earthquake hit the Bay Area, it was eye opener for me to learn more about emergency communications. In April of 1990 I met Terry Taylor N6MON and learned about the ham radio class at the HRC. I learned a lot, studied the morse code tapes from home and at the class. I took the test and LA LA earned my Novice license KC6QLV on a grant date of December 1990. I started to study for the Tech exam, after the third attempt I passed my Tech. (Since The FCC passed the No Code license I was automatically grandfathered to a Tech plus, a license above 50 mhz with HF privileges in the Novice Sub bands.) Today I hold a General Class License with the same call sign KC6QLV. The hobby has opened doors to employment opportunities over the years along with earning my Associate Applied Science degree in Electronics from Heald College in October of 1997. I've returned To HRC what HRC has taught me so much about the hobby. Two of my friends became hams recently, Ray Mitchell- KI6FYU a friend who taught me the resistor color code, and my friend Mike Comer KI6TZF who I met Working at Southland Mall Security in Hayward, Ca. Both became HRC members do to my persistence in mentoring. I call this passing the baton to the next generation of ham radio operators. To date I am active on the nets, participated in Air Shows, Ohlone 50K, Skyline 50K, the Mount HAmilton bicycle classic, became a volunteer with the City of Hayward Office of Emergency Services through R.A.C.E.S participated in simulated disaster drills, and performed as a Net control operator during the nets. Most Important active in participant in Field Day! I hope Amateur Radio hobby stays alive and well as long there is a need in emergency communications. I love this hobby and I enjoy being a mentor teaching and giving advice to anyone who asks me and / or wants more information about this wonderful hobby. - Tim, KC6QLV

TIME WAITS FOR NO ONE: HAPPY THANKSGIVING

For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life.

But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid.

Life would begin. At last at dawned on me to see that these obstacles were my life.

This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness.

Happiness is the way, So, treasure every moment you have. And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time...

and remember that time waits for no one...

HAPPINESS IS A JOURNEY NOT A DESTINATION.

Alfred D. Souza

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

REST FOR THE WEARY Matthew 11:28-29

Matthew 11:28-29

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Rest for the weary. Ever felt the cards are stacked against your favor? Have you ever felt that the world as a whole works against you? I use to think that way after I stopped going to church. It's a horrible feeling. I got down to reading the Gospel according to Matthew this weekend, a couple chapters of bible reading per day and your soul will recharge itself. I read this passage from above and flashed back to my High School days from Santa Barbara, Ca (St. Anthony's Seminary 1985). Things were much different back than, but the stress was the same. It puts a whole new concept, how you deal with stress, how you interact with your family, friends, and co-workers. MUST have Christ in the center of your life deal with such stress, I find a whole new way of looking at life with my high school days a block form. The Stress that's from Family issues, my Son has a genetic disorder, divisions within the family circle, The fiances mounting into a mountain of debt, and work gets ever demanding on performance. That's the Stress I am talking about, but I SHOULD NOT complain because I know to a certain degree that My neighbor next to me has it that much harder in LIFE. It's Jesus Christ that pulls it in all together to deal with your Stress on a day to day basis.

The Holidays is upon us, So go out and serve the Lord by volunteering, give away to the needy, and praise God for the GIFT OF LIFE! Allow Jesus Christ into your Life and let HIM take the burden of your troubles in your life.

God Bless, Your brother in Christ, Tim

GOD'S Grace: His Power of Healing

John 8:1-11
Jesus returned to the Mount of Olives, but early the next morning he was back again at the Temple. A crowd soon gathered, and he sat down and taught them. As he was speaking, the teachers of religious law and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in the act of adultery. They put her in front of the crowd.
“Teacher,” they said to Jesus, “this woman was caught in the act of adultery. The law of Moses says to stone her. What do you say?”
They were trying to trap him into saying something they could use against him, but Jesus stooped down and wrote in the dust with his finger. They kept demanding an answer, so he stood up again and said, “All right, but let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!” Then he stooped down again and wrote in the dust.
When the accusers heard this, they slipped away one by one, beginning with the oldest, until only Jesus was left in the middle of the crowd with the woman. Then Jesus stood up again and said to the woman, “Where are your accusers? Didn’t even one of them condemn you?”
“No, Lord,” she said.
And Jesus said, “Neither do I. Go and sin no more.” —————

Somebody once told me in a deep conversation that we were having one evening, her concern was If God was punishing her for the affair she was having with a friend that was married? Her and her male friend who was married, they been dating for a time and she wanted to get married herself and have more children. She was in deep emotion when she asked me why is God punishing me and what do you think of me for living a life like I do she said.

I gave an answer quoting John 8: 1-11 where a woman who was caught in adultery was brought before Jesus. I told her first, That I myself is without sin, and therefore I don't judge you for what you do in your personal life. Second, I told her as long as you are repentant and Truly Sorry for the Life you live, God Will Forgive You, if you ask. (Matthew 7:7-8):

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."

I concluded the conversation that she should focus on her own goals in LIFE, discontinue the relationship, but KEEP him as a Friend only. Somethings are never ment to be, especially if your crossing the extreams on another relationship--- A Marriage. Marriages as we all know is a union between man and woman through God. (Matthew 19:4-6)

"Haven't you read," he replied, "that at the beginning the Creator 'made them male and female,and said, 'For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh'? So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate.

Brother In Christ

Tim

GOD HEALS AND FORGIVES: Daily Struggles. AVOID FAILURES

PRAYER OF SAINT FRANCIS OF ASSISI

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.
Amen.

1 Peter 1:13-14

Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance.

Avoid failures, and set your mind to the grace of God through the Lord Jesus Christ.

The First letter of Peter in Chapter 1 reminds us to put ourselves in a mind set to avoid failure.

The prayer of Saint Francis of Assisi has a smoothing sound to it. It's a prayer of opposites, that we are reminded to achieve eternal life. The Bible teaches forgiveness, love your enemies and pray to those who persecute you.

SAYING GOOD BY TO YOUR PAST. 1 Peter 14-16

As obedient children, do not be conformed to the former lusts which were yours in your ignorance, but like the Holy One who called you,be holy yourselves also in all your behavior;
because it is written, "YOU SHALL BE HOLY, FOR I AM HOLY."

Let your past go it will only brings you down. I can count to a zillion times to tell you how true this is. An easy trap to fall in, to start drinking and/or drug use. For some people this may be a difficult task since they want to rekindle that broken relationship and/or friendship. It takes time to get over a broken relationship especially if an relationship lasts more than 5, 10, and possibly even more as 20 years. It hits you like a BRICK WALL. From My personal experience it's a void that needs to be filled. How you fill that void is totally up to you Positive or negative. Today I look toward our Lord for His guidance, ask for His wisdom and His Protection. If the Friendship or relationship was meant to be the LORD Will provide. If Not You and I my friends have to move on: SO TRY TO FORGET THE PAST

2 Corinthians 5 :17

Therefore if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come.

If you find it difficult to get over your hangups, your troubles and/ or addictions, I can't stress it enough for you to seek professional help. TRY Celebrate Recovery it works, IT Works for me!!!! www.celebraterecovery.com

God Bless To each one of you.

Brother in Christ Jesus

Tim Kyle

PHILIPPIANS 3:13-14

Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

This passage taken from Saint Paul's letter to the Philippians says a lot. I Learned this passage from my Senior Pastor from Church. ( The Bible has an answer to ALL Life's problems.) As the days go by so does my recovering process from alcoholism and depression. I am finding something new everyday about myself I never knew. I Learn that regardless what kind of background, what kind of lifestyle, God FORGIVES, AND HEALS By giving His Son's, Christ Jesus' death on a cross. Amazing GRACE FROM OUR LORD!!

Life is full of challenges. I pray for this country of ours as it struggles through the economic times. I pray for President Elect Senator Obama and his Family, and that the new administration guides this country to prosperous times.

God Bless To all who are suffering from alcoholism, depression, from broken families and homes because of it. DON'T Give Up, there is a light. Just keep moving forward, keep praying and keep motivated. Christmas season will be here soon, so REACH OUT TO YOUR NEIGHBOR And Let them know how important they are!!

Brother in Christ Tim

EPHESIANS 4:26 St.Paul's letter to the Ephesians

Ephesians 4:26

" In your anger do not sin." Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,"

This one passage taken from Saint Paul's Letter to Ephesians tells a lot on how to control anger. It also tells me a lot how marriages, personal friendships, relationships in general keep healthy. I heard this passage from a recent testimony at Celebrate Recovery last month and thought about it and It's TRUE!!! Keeping things on a short stick, don't let anger build up, Don't let anger control your life. I think back to my youth in High School and College years. I ask myself where did I go wrong? I let the little things build up, I Let my anger get the best of me, and I started to drink!
Today, marks Day 134 of my sobriety. I dedicate this blog to all my relationships and friends I lost to my alcoholism, and May this blog page reach to those who are hurting, dealing with depression and anger that God may send them His healing power. AMEN

Brother in Christ Jesus
Tim :)

GOD/ LORD JESUS CHRIST CURES / My Depression has left me!

This past week has been one phenomenal week! After last Friday 10/24/08 SJSU Game where I met my friend to watch the game till today 10/31/08 Halloween, I've seen an improvement within myself, I don't get upset over anything, 2 Timothy 22-26 "Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will."

It's remarkable how the healing power of you LORD can do!!! Another bible verse that comes to mind that I have totally forgotten : It Comes from LUKE 6:35

But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked."

Yes! " Without expecting anything back.." I think this was my heart of my depression issues because I would expect something in return that never materialized.

Everyone, including families, personal friends and even co-workers and formal co-workers have their "issues." Just recently after some deep thought of e-mail exchanges I have come to realization that even two people who live completely different life styles can be friends without influencing each other. Years ago people who I just described through this friend would pull me down, use my kindness to their advantage to buy drugs in East Oakland at 2:00am, give them rides, loan them money, It was a disaster!!! TODAY It's a completely different tune, I have isolated my feelings, accepted the facts, THE TRUTH and I can HONESTLY SAY It does not bother me. I ALLOW GOD/ JESUS CHRIST With The Power of The HOLY SPIRIT TO BE CENTER OF MY LIFE NOT THE PART OF MY LIFE, THE CENTER OF MY LIFE!!! THIS IS WHAT I CALL ESTABLISHED BOUNDARIES BETWEEN TWO FRIENDS. I CAN'T CHANGE MY FRIEND, My formal co-worker, ONLY God/Higher Power can do that. You see about 7 to 10 years Ago I thought I can change people, and that's where I found trouble!!! I've LEARNED, And God has Taught me well through my personal friend that I am using as example.

Five years ago I was at my LOWEST POINT AFTER MY BOUT OF SUICIDAL TENDENCIES, NOT a Place to be, believe me you do not want to be there!! I Lost Trust to all my friends, family, and even God If you can believe that one. So how do you recover? I used My hobby Amateur radio to start communicating on the airwaves. To get my mind motivated, I had to learn Let go some of my pain, hurts and hangups. However I was still going through Bouts of Alcoholism withdraw at the same time adjusting my anti depressant medications. It was a eye opening experience!! But God Did Not Stop there, Oh no He keeps going..

Take this bible passage from Philippians 1:6

"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."

Do you see What God/ Higher Power is doing?

With that God Bless,

Please E-mail me Tim_kc6qlv@hotmail.com Or leave your comments, I would sure like your feed back, Thank you!! Your Brother in Christ Tim

FORGIVENESS : What does it mean when you forgive someone?

"Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you." Colossians 3:13







What does it mean to forgive someone? In my personal experience, in order to forgive I have to examine what the exact nature of the offense was. It's usually over some argument, a heated discussion that took place in person, or over the telephone. Sometimes it's another person's actions like stealing, causing physical harm, name calling or some other argument. Family quarrels are the most common. 9 of 10 arguments are caused by some disagreement which leads to hastily actions, in other words "The Heat Of Passion" are committed without the person actually meaning it.







In a situation of mine that happened about 13 years ago I have looked back and realized how my alcoholic mind (When I was in denial) played a part. At the time of occurrence I was not thinking to clear, ONLY after I committed the action than I realize I should of "bit my tongue." As I reflect on it today, I was in the wrong totally. Why? I realized what the person( My close friend) was actually trying to say to me based on my own moral values I grew up on as a Catholic.(See Personal Testimony blog entry.) What I saw at that moment was a "stab in the back " a violation of TRUST ( The kind of Trust where You can depend on each other to save each other lives.) It was unreal, uncanny, and a something I REGRET EVER DOING. This is what I have to live with everyday of my life. I Pray that I may be forgiven someday. I learned the hard way that there are consequences and repercussions for the actions I took that day. The LORD Has forgiven me; I know I am a different person now than I was back then. To Forgive a person is like a burden lifted off your shoulders, living without guilt, fear and shame. I have moved on from this experience, I guess what really concerns me is how the other person involved lives their life seeing the frustration, never smiling and living in fear. I pray for this formal friend every day so that God's loving Grace may be granted over this matter. I tried to offer amends, that's all I can do. I consider the "event"; the disagreement a closed matter.

2 Timothy 2:22-26

"Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will."





Dwelling on the past is unhealthy and Not wise. I find comfort in the our LORD through volunteering, studying the bible in small groups, attending church service, and of course CELEBRATE RECOVERY, the place to be on Wednesday nights. Yes Celebrate Recovery where lives are changed. It has changed my ways of thinking for the better and it still continues.

YES I MUST CONTINUE WITH CELEBRATE RECOVERY AND PRESS ON STAYING SOBER!

1 Timothy 1 : 15-16

"Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience as an example for those who would believe on him and receive eternal life."

I know the Lord has forgiven me because I forgave one my closest friends I once knew from college.

James 5:16

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.

God Bless To All
Amen!

My Personal Testimony... Where I started, Where I came from, and Where I am going.

My vacation came and gone, including the recent Men's retreat at Mt. Harmon. Thanks To Pastor John Bruce for leading the group. Personal testimonies, what are they? Personal Testimonies is a autobiography of the way the person was before receiving Christ into his or her life and how their life has changed after receiving Christ into their life.

My life has many twist, I just completed my short testimony, a mini story in a chronological order. I lost a very sincere friend to my alcoholism, mainly because I was blind to the disease, I WAS IN DENIAL! My lost did not stop their, I lost my marriage and made a fool of myself. I also lost out on my relationship with my two children.

If you have faith in Christ like I do, relationships can be restored, People who were once good friends can start speaking to each other, it's a matter of timing, God's Timing. We Just have to pray and perhaps someday things will happen.

I came to Creekside Church to find God, to get reconnected to my faith in our Lord Jesus Christ, This is the TRUTH. I met new people, and I joined a small group, thanks to Bob Knoll. What I did not realize was my PAST. (Excluding the name for the obvious reasons here), for me to walk away, run away, stop attending is saying I run away from my problems. I decided to stay regardless what happens. My past does not acknowledge my existence which got me thinking real hard on What kind of psychological damage did I cause?, what Other damages in this person's life I may have contributed? So I soul searched and I realized how messed up I was. I Joined Celebrate Recovery to examine my life further... Today at post time is DAY 116 of my sobriety. I pray for a day of reconciliation, someday: HERE IS MY TESTIMONY:


My name is Tim; I am a believer in Jesus Christ and a child of God who struggles with alcoholism, major depression, and anger. Today is day __###_ of my sobriety.

I am the youngest child of a family of four with one brother and two sisters. I was raised a Roman Catholic and I started drinking alcohol at the age of 16. Even though I learned to drink responsibly, I never thought alcohol would be a problem.

I was raised and lived by a strict of Catholic/ Christian moral values respecting marriage relationships and established boundaries. I learned that a gentleman never physically harms a female.

As I applied my moral values to my everyday life I met new people, new ideas, eventually met new friends while in college.

I met my wife Stephanie, we were married of January 1992 and we raised a family. We both drank alcohol to relieve stress from our jobs. The marriage problems developed caused by finances, debts we owned and lack of quality time together. I started to stay out late after work drinking my problems away. My mind started to drift away loosing site of those moral values I protected so well, eventually my drinking affected my marital relations with Stephanie that led to my infidelity, I became unfaithful.

My reputation was damaged, I became guilty, angry and depressed. The depression caused me to drink; I drank to cure the depression. Do you see the dilemma? I started to lose friends. I became angry and lost my faith in God. Stephanie and I divorced in 1998.

In 2003 I hit “Rock Bottom” by walking that suicidal path. I found help, my drinking did not stop however and my faith in God was lost.

I found Creekside Community Church seeking God. The pastor’s sermons made me think who I am. So I kept coming Sunday after Sunday to learn more, joined a small group met new people, however my past troubles kept haunting me. That’s when I joined Celebrate Recovery. Celebrate recovery open the door to reconnect my faith in God and to accept Jesus Christ into my life. Where I can confess my sins, the terror and harm I caused to people from my addiction to alcohol without being judged or looked down upon, make amends to those people who I harmed and able to forgive those people who offended me.

Thanks And God Bless!!

THE WARNING SIGNS: The Art Of Helping- What to say and do When Someone Is Hurting. PART TWO

Looking back in the last 15 to 20 years of my life, I can identify areas where I failed, where I succeeded, and areas where I made a difference to some peoples lives. When I worked at Southland Mall in private security I was exposed to a lot of stuff involving just about anything imaginable. There were the shop lifters, the drunk and disorderly, the gang fights, and the domestic violence. There is one particular scenario that happened on JULY 24, 1994 a Sunday afternoon at 2:00 PM. Why was this date remembered? Imagine walking into a room unknowing to you a situation that happened that you had no control over, an event that you never asked for, and you never wanted. It's like asking Where were you when JFK was shot?



On the above date and time as mentioned I was patrolling the South side of the Mall parking lot minding my own business. Working in private security requires some fast thinking, protection of life and property and knowing what's normal looking and what's not, including the people who worked there. I observed a person who normally does not work on Sundays, and that's when it happened. My "Gut Feeling" told me to go over there and say hi to this person, this person I shall call "Cathy." "Cathy" A married woman, with a 9 y/o son at the time and only knew Cathy for 5 years. Other than that there not much more I know about Cathy other than the rumors, in my line of work you do not contribute to the rumor mill.



Curious to find out what was up, Why she was there on Sunday, I approached to say hi. Her response was like a bad dream. Cathy told me her husband threatened her with a divorce. Asking her how she felt? Starting from the top of her face and looking into her eyes she became beet red, turning into jello. The tears pouring out of eyes like water flowing. Obviously she was extreme emotionally distressed about it!!! She literally became a part on me, Not the Cathy I know!!





WHAT DO YOU DO? DO YOU KNOW WHAT TO SAY? WHAT DO I DO? THIS IS WHAT I DID AND THIS IS WHAT I SAID!!



First I got control of Cathy, second I asked Cathy to hold my hand, She started to shake and she was in an emotional turmoil all she wanted was to cry. I told her "To let it all out and when your ready to talk raise your head up."

I asked her specifically what she do if your husband does file for divorce, and that's when I knew I was in trouble when she replied " I will kill myself."( WARNING: WHEN SOMEONE YOU KNOW EXPRESSES SUICIDE AND YOU BELIEVE IF HE OR SHE HAS THE MEANS TO DO IT, STOP AND CALL 911!! Don't mess around and don't take chances!!)

When she utter those words She started to cry hysterically with tears drenching my uniform. NOT A PRETTY SITE!

I proceed to ask a series of questions based what I learned from a Psychology class,
1 Provide empathy, 2. Ask why? 3, Ask How or ask if they have a plan? 4 What stopping them? This questions raises doubt, You take what they say and you turn the table to make an argument over to CHOOSE LIFE rather than DEATH. 5 DON'T make promises, 6. In confidence get their Family involved. 7. Encourage them to seek professional help!! 8. Take the threat SERIOUSLY Do not ignore them!

With Cathy, It just took me under 20 minutes for her to go from a emotional breakdown to well enough for her to return work. Not only Did I encourage her to seek professional help but to make an appointment to see a Catholic Priest at her parish. Lastly I obtained a phone number where she was going after work and I gave a deadline to call my wife( not me) but my wife. ( You never want to get mixed up in someones marriage problem) and If I didn't hear back by the deadline I was going to start calling from her parents to her husband and everyone in between till find out where she was, NOT TO MENTION THE MARRIAGE PROBLEM, BUT for her SAFETY, AND I Meant It!! The Good News, She did exactly everything I told her to do.

MORAL OF THE STORY: Expect the Unexpected, Give the person choices. In Crisis intervention you are their life line, They have the choice. I told Cathy there was two ways we can go about it I can call 911 and you can go to the hospital, OR You can do it yourself without the "Circus." Which one do you want?

I don't recommend the tactics I used to anyone, I did What I can do based on how well I knew Cathy and her Personal circumstances, everyone does not respond the same way as Cathy did. If you ever find yourself in a similar position, Ask God To send The Holy Spirit and Pray to give you strength. Do the follow ups short and to the point by not overextending your welcome. IT WAS A HAPPY ENDING!! :) :) :) I SAVED A LIFE THAT DAY AND PERSONALLY THANK OUR LORD FOR ASSISTING ME!!

THE WARNING SIGNS: / Know When You Are Lied To Part One

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN LIED TO, AND NOT EVEN KNOWN IT? IF someone says to you " You are my Friend." Are they your friend?





When I attended Chabot College in Hayward, Ca in the Middle to the later part of the 1980's I studied to major in Administration of Justice, my ambition at this time was to pursue a career into Law Enforcement. I took a few Psychology Classes as required for my major. In one of the classes I learned how to interpret body language, and compared that to what they are saying and even how they are breathing at the time. It's a science in itself.

GOING WITH THE FLOW

If your not sure on how a friendship starts, or what the person who you are friends with TRUE intentions are, my suggestion try a simple meeting time for coffee. If the Answer is NO, then there you have it, no need to pursue the friendship any further.

Look at the person's eyes when they are talking to you, are they looking at you when they say it? How is their Posture? Do they stop what they are doing when they talk are they keep going? Do they initiate the hello? These questions and more you have to ask yourself, How committed are you to keep the friendship going if the simplest warning signs are detected. A Friendship is a two way street where both no matter if they are the opposite or the same sex, the communication is open without any doubt or hangups. The most obvious when one party keeps asking for money with out any form of payback. DON'T LEND MONEY OUT UNLESS It's Tangible things that the person needs or it's agreed upon to set a barter. Loaning money out can breakup a friendship and even families. Don't Test the loyalty of the friendship that never works. Sometimes leaving the person alone gives the person time to think how important the friendship really is; however if there is any doubt of you being used, or you are being used to their advantage, simply walk away quietly. Best to remain positive than having a negative feeling.

Friendships takes time to grow like wine fermenting. ALWAYS Pray at the beginning, midday and evening for your friends and for friends you have not met yet. Go with your "Gut instinct" TRUE Friends are always there for you, in good times as well as the bad. Always thank your friend for being there.

FIND OUT FIRST

Check or Find out what kind of a person they are before going further. You don't want to be mixed up with someone who uses or sells drugs, that's no fun. What kind of work do they do? Are they married, single, divorced or in some other committed relationship? With Married friends you may want to consider not get involved or just meet them as a couple. ( DON'T Get pulled into a marriage problem!!) Insist that you

meet as couple,(Christian Moral Values).

In Part Two I will talk about how to help a friend deal with stress.

LIFE LONG FRIENDSHIPS/ WHAT MAKES THEM TIC? PART 2

Since joining "C R" (Celebrate Recovery http://www.celebraterecovery.com/ ) and renewing my faith in Christ through baptism I am finding more doors opened in my life never thought possible. I allowed Jesus Christ my savior the path to the one true God into my life.



Jesus said: "Here I Am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with Me." (Revelation 3:20)



I call this the foundation block; allowing God through the Lord Jesus Christ, and the strength from the Holy Spirit to guide me.

In Part One I said that chemistry plays a part in a life long friendship.

The basic fundamentals I look at in a long lasting friendship are the following.



1. Respect for who they are, this includes if they are from a different faith, honor their faith in their God.



2. Respect their privacy -- Just don't come over to their home, CALL AHEAD and see what they are up to first. They may be busy.



3. Respect Boundaries-- No body including myself likes to be pushed around or taken advantage of. REALLY LISTEN TO WHAT THEY ARE SAYING HERE. SO LET THEM BE IF THEY WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE.



4. Be a problem solver -- Friends come together to help each other if they need some advice when they feel stuck on what to do.



5. ESTABLISH TRUST!!!-- Do something that develops TRUST!
Find time in busy schedules to do things together that share in common, learn something new that you have not known before.

Trust is very important, Always keep what they say to yourself, (except if they threaten to harm themselves or someone else, Look at the degree level of the threat before you act.)





In my personal life over the years people walk in and out of my life at a rapid pace. There are co-workers, church members, casual contacts that I meet at a local Peet's coffee or Starbucks, and counseling groups, but the one's who e-mail me, call me, text message me out of the blue on a weekend just to say "hi", " how did you do in that courier class?" " have a good weekend!" , "Lets try to meet up for coffee?" These are the ones I call friends, and I CHERISH THESE FRIENDS AND LET THEM KNOW HOW MUCH THEIR FRIENDSHIP MEANS TO ME!! It's the "little things" that makes or breaks a friendship. I pray everyday for my friends, the people who I work with, to give thanks to God Himself for keeping them safe at work, on the road, and at their homes. Ask for God's GRACE by keeping the FAITH.

Shalom,

PEACE

Brother In Christ

Tim :)

LIFE LONG FRIENDSHIPS

A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway. -- Fr. Jerome Cummings

Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends. -- Cindy Lew

"Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you." -- Elbert Hubbard

"Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure." -- Jewish saying

What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies. -- Aristotle

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.Just walk beside me and be my friend.-- Albert Camus

Have you ever figure out what makes up the chemistry between two people to become a life long friendship?

As I progress through Celebrate Recovery, I am rediscovering my old self. My old self the way I remembered it when I was growing up, before I abused alcohol (See Life Changes/ My Alcohol addiction parts 1 and 2.)

John 15:12-15
12 This is my commandment: Love each other in the same way I have loved you. 13 There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you slaves, because a master doesn’t confide in his slaves. Now you are my friends, since I have told you everything the Father told me.

The Ultimate sacrifice is to lay down your life for a friend. How many TRUE friends (people) will go to that extreme? As I do my "soul searching" I find myself in a crossroad. An intersection on what direction do I turn, do I keep the person close, or do I put him/her aside and move on? As I continue my "soul search" I trust my instinct, would that person do the same for me under the same pretense? It's a YES OR NO question, not a debate. Sure I have placed myself in harms way to protect a friend, and yes, there were friends who did the same for me. Is it common interest? Is it common backgrounds? Same beliefs? Perhaps all above.

I am LEARNING TO JUST PLACE MY TRUST IN THE LORD when it comes to friendships. You can't buy friendship, A friendship is earned, and respected. KEEP THE FAITH MY FRIENDS!! GOD BLESS. TIM

OUR NATION IN A CRISIS / FINDING FAITH IN OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST.

" Trials and Temptations Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does. "
(James 1:2-8)

Our Nation's economy is in a world of hurt right now. The Dow Jones dropped 504 pts on Monday (9/15/08) to 10,917.51, the largest single drop since Wall Street reopened after 9/11 on Sept 17, 2001. HP announces another round of layoffs. Hurricane IKE devastates the Gulf Coast of Texas people out of their homes AND A.I.G. Insurance showing signs of trouble after the Aftermath of IKE.


Where on Earth is this world coming to? Not to mention the Middle East Crisis, The war on terror in Iraq, and in Afghanistan. The Billions of dollars spent and our Nation's Debt keeps climbing. Medical benefits are disappearing, while cost of living keeps going up and up. I don't recall a time in my life where our country has so much trouble, but again my parents were born and raised during the Great Depression in the 1930's. This Country of ours has gone through Two World Wars, The conflict in Korea in the 1950's, and Vietnam during the 60's and 70's, The Riots, the assassination's of our Political Leaders in the 60's. Have you had enough!??

Hard times, good times, the ups and the downs, yes life is hard. Just remember keep your faith with God and our Lord Jesus Christ. We are in a "Storm", A big Financial Hurricane, that we must KEEP THE FAITH TO RIDE IT OUT!!
So, my brothers and sisters in Christ Keep the faith, do what's necessary for you and your families to survive this storm within social norms. Vote this November 2008. Look and read over the parties platforms, and VOTE YOUR CONSCIOUS AND PRAY TO YOUR GOD AND TO OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST! AMEN!!


Jesus Calms the Storm "Then he got into the boat and his disciples followed him. Without warning, a furious storm came up on the lake, so that the waves swept over the boat. But Jesus was sleeping. The disciples went and woke him, saying, "Lord, save us! We're going to drown!"
He replied, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" Then he got up and rebuked the winds and the waves, and it was completely calm."

Matt 8:23-26


2 Timothy 2:11-13
"Here is a trustworthy saying: If we died with him, we will also live with him; if we endure, we will also reign with him. If we disown him, he will also disown us; if we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for he cannot disown himself."

MY HOBBY: AMATEUR RADIO/ How it helped me. PART 1

K C 6 Q L V

My call sign is issued by the United States Federal Communications Commission, At present I hold a General Class Amateur Radio Licence. My call sign KC6QLV is recognized around the world as an United States Call sign. The designator for US; K C followed by the number, the number 6 is designated for California. The United States is broken down to 10 calling districts 0-9. The QLV is a sequence of letters starting at AAA and ending at ZZZ in the KC6 Prefix. An example would be like the the last 4 digits to the phone number.

UNITED STATES PREFIXS

AA-AZ

KA-KZ

WA-WZ

A

N

W

KH6 -HAWAII

The Amateur radio Service is regulated by the FCC and complies to the Commissions rules found in Part 97. U S Amateurs take pride in our Call signs, we post it all over, on t-shirts, Car License plates, on posters, and many other things like hats.( Visit Rossdesigns at http://www.loriross.com/)

The Amateur's Code

The Radio Amateur is

CONSIDERATE...never knowingly operates in such a way as to lessen the pleasure of others.
LOYAL...offers loyalty, encouragement and support to other amateurs, local clubs, and the American Radio Relay League, through which Amateur Radio in the United States is represented nationally and internationally.
PROGRESSIVE...with knowledge abreast of science, a well-built and efficient station and operation above reproach.
FRIENDLY...slow and patient operating when requested; friendly advice and counsel to the beginner; kindly assistance, cooperation and consideration for the interests of others. These are the hallmarks of the amateur spirit.
BALANCED...radio is an avocation, never interfering with duties owed to family, job, school or community.
PATRIOTIC...station and skill always ready for service to country and community.
--The original Amateur's Code was written by Paul M. Segal, W9EEA, in 1928.

Amateur radio operators here in the United States and

around the world take certain pride in what they do. As the Amateur code suggest we are servants and work as ambassadors serving to "First responders" in a civil emergency like a natural disaster.

Assist in communications for bicycle rides, runs, and special events. The ones I participate in each year are Mt. Hamilton bicycle classic, The Ohlone 50K and The Skyline 50K runs all in the East Bay. (http://www.abovethefog.com/ http://www.skyline50k.com/ ).

LASTLY, is the annual Amateur Radio Field Day Event. (http://www.k6eag.org/)

Field Day is held on the last weekend of June, and Amateurs around the country participate in this fun event. Field Day is a time to show the public at large about emergency preparedness and emergency communications operating other than A/C Commercial power. Field Day is a awesome way to get to meet people who attend and learn the basic operating practices of amateur radio. These events are sponsored by Radio Clubs, and are held at public places such as a park. The Public is highly encouraged to attend along with your friends and family. I been a ham operator for 18 years (little less than half my life), and I endure this hobby very much, it has open many doors for me. FOR MORE INFORMATION Please Visit The American Radio Relay League at http://www.arrl.org/ and To practice taking the test visit http://www.qrz.com/

BAPTISM: REBORN INTO A NEW LIFE PART 2

Jeremiah 29:11



" For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. They are the plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope."

John 3:21

" But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may seen plainly that what he has done through God."

Baptism, as stated in part 1 the old self buried with Christ death on the cross and the new self comes out of the water.

Baptism removes sin from your old self so that God, the Father is the center of your life. A person within you who guides you, protects you, and listens to your concerns.

Evil and sin has no place and cannot control you. You have the choice to do good, to conquer evil. With that said, the past is the past and it does not dictate your life in the present or the future. Since God is in the center of you, He is in control. We have the opportunity to live with him eternally.

ROMANS 2:7

" To those who by persistence in doing good, seek glory, honor, and immortality, He will give eternal life."

MICAH 6:8

" HE has shown you O Man what is good and what does the Lord require of you? To act Justly and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God."

Practice your faith everyday. Allow God to be in control and the center in every kind of relationship - Coworker, a friend, your spouse (especially) and/or significant other. No mater who or what TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY YOU WANT TO BE TREATED.

ROMANS 12:17-19

"Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay,"says the Lord."

Live in Harmony

God Bless

Tim

BAPTISM: REBORN INTO A NEW LIFE. PART 1

Once again The CAL BEARS WON!! Congrats to the CAL BEAR Team! (66-3?) WOW!! Game was not Televised, Thank You KGO 810 on the AM Dial for carrying the game. 50k Watt Transmitter(Later lesson on Signal propagation.)


(Disclaimer, Do to so much excitement of being Baptized, I left my camera in my car. Hopefully I can obtain a photo from the Youth Pastor to show off in my next entry.)





Romans 6:1-9


"What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? By no means! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? Or don't you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.
If we have been united with him like this in his death, we will certainly also be united with him in his resurrection. For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves to sin— because anyone who has died has been freed from sin.
Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we will also live with him. For we know that since Christ was raised from the dead, he cannot die again; death no longer has mastery over him."





YES, I was baptized last Sunday September 7th, 2008 at Cull Canyon Park. I was the last one in the group from Creekside Church. Thank You Pastor John! The symbolic symbol of baptism is doing away of your old self and the new self coming out of the water. The old self with all the hurts, hang ups, and habits done away with, along with the sins. Accepting Jesus Christ as LORD and SAVIOR allows that Sin to be taken away by Christ's Crucifixion. ALL the Troubles, hang -ups, and habits have been erased (FORGIVEN) and a New Life has begun. A MAJOR STEP IN THE RECOVERY PROCESS!!! Thank to my accountability Partner Rick for being there along with the rest of the Creekside members ('Family'). THIS BAPTISM TOOK PLACE ON DAY 75 OF MY SOBRIETY. Remember Just the Facts, Not the Feelings.

I personally want to thank Associate Pastor Bob, for encouraging me to enroll into Celebrate Recovery, and keeping me focused.



REMEMBER IT'S NEVER TOO LATE. ALWAYS LOOK TOWARD GOD FOR HELP. "ASK,AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE." Matt 7

God Bless

Tim

OVER COMING DEPRESSION

Over coming depression by placing the TRUST IN THE LORD. 2 Corinthians 10:12-13 "We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise. We, however, will not boast beyond proper limits, but will confine our boasting to the field God has assigned to us, a field that reaches even to you."

One of the ways to Over come depression is by NOT comparing ourselves to another.

Live the Life that God wants you too, not by something your not. God knows we are not perfect and we will make mistakes from time to time, this is called being human.

Another cause for depression is acting on feelings not by the facts, this is what I fall into- the Feelings, not the Facts. Avoid personal Feelings, and Just look at the facts nothing else. John 8:32 "Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."

God Bless,

Tim

HAPPY 55th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY

HAPPY 55th Wedding Anniversary

Sept 5, 1953- Sept 5, 2008

To My Parents, JOHN AND JOANNE KYLE

Thanking Them For ALL THEY DONE.

God Bless Their Health.

From their Youngest son Tim who loves them so much!!

BOOK REVIEW / LIFE'S HEALING CHOICES: Freedom from your hurts, hang-ups and habbits.

Labor Day weekend is now over. The CAL Bears won their Season opener! I invited my friend Diane to Monterey, CA for her Birthday and spent most of the day at the Aquarium. The weather was great, not too hot. On Labor Day I finished reading "Life's Healing Choices: Freedom from your hurts hang-ups and habits."




Written by Pastor John Baker (pastor at Saddleback Church in Southern California).

It empathises on the eight principals, based on the Beatitudes Found in Matthew 5.



Principal one: Realize I am Not God, I admit that I am powerless to control my tendency to do the wrong thing and that my life is unmanageable.

" Blessed are the poor in spirit." Matt 5:3



Principal Two: Earnestly believe that God exist, that I matter to him and he has the power to help me recover.

"Blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted ." Matt 5:4



Principal Three: Consciously choose to commit all my life and will to Christ's care and control.

"Blessed are the meek." Matt 5:5



Principal Four: Openly examine and confess my faults to myself and God And to someone I trust.

"Blessed are the pure in heart ." Matt 5:8



Principal Five: Voluntarily submit to every change God wants to make in my life and humbly ask him to remove my character defects.

"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness." Matt 5:6



Principal Six: Evaluate all my relationships. Offer forgiveness to those who have hurt me and make amends for harm I've done to others, except when to do so would harm them or others.

"Blessed are the merciful." Matt 5:7

"Blessed are the peacemakers." Matt 5: 9



Principal Seven: Reserve a Daily Time with God for self examination, bible reading and prayer in order to know God and His Will for my life and to gain the power to follow His will.



Principal Eight: Yield myself to God to be used to bring this Good News to others both by example and my words.



Have you ever asked yourself Why people find themselves in certain predicaments?
Why you find people in hopeless situations? Why the divorce rate in this country is so high? ( Me included). People in general don't want to face their problems, rather they pretend it's not there. I lived a Lie for over 10 years, before I came to grips of reality, and The resentments I held on to for so long. I decided to do something about it.

Life's Healing Choices opens doors to ways never thought possible. It deals with all issues, no matter what the issue is or how complicated your situation is. IF you are hurting from a past relationship, a divorce such as myself, struggling with finances, been a victim of a serious crime like abuse, or your current marriage is in trouble and looking for help. This is the book for you, don't hesitate to order your copy now. I recommend this book, don't delay.

http://www.celebraterecovery.com/ Log onto this web site and locate a Celebrate Recovery group in your area.

God Bless You All,
Tim

OVERCOMING FEAR: IN the LORD'S Eyes

Having difficulty of overcoming fear?

1 John 4:18

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect love."

Hebrews 13:6

"So we say with confidence " The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"

Alcoholism is a disease. When I drank, I drank to relieve stress! The consequence of my drinking I became a different person. A person that the people so close to me became fearful, and terrified. WHAT HAVE I DONE?

TODAY, (8/29/2008) is day 66 of my sobriety. I have overcome my fear by praying to the Lord Jesus Christ to Forgive my sins who I have done wrong, I prayed to the Holy Spirit to Give me strength.

After I admitted I was alcoholic, I became fearful for ALL the Wrongs, All the shame, all the embarrassing things and SERIOUS Hurts I caused because of my drinking. Yes, I was afraid. I was afraid from the people I caused Harm, especially "Whitney." I WAS TOTALLY WRONG!! AND, I PAID THE PRICE!!!

FIRST I had to Forgive myself, and ask God for his forgiveness!!

Second, I had examine the Hurt I caused to people, and Pray for them.

Third, I forgave the people who hurt me.

I ask You To Pray for me on my sobriety and recovery.

To the people I caused harm and damaged relationships, I ask for your forgiveness. I ask to make amends wherever possible. Thank You LORD for this Day 66 of my sobriety.

Tim

LIFE CHANGES / MY ALCOHOL ADDICTION PART 2

Psalm 107:13-14

"Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress.
He brought them out of darkness and the deepest gloom and broke away their chains."









In part one I talked about how my addiction of alcohol got started, how long it continued, made friends, raised my family, and then it came all crashing down at once. I lost it all! I lived in denial from this problem for a number of years, living a life of dishonesty, isolation, and feeling depressed. I lost my closest friends, It seemed I was alone in the world. My relationship with GOD? I did not think I had one.



I continued to live in denial, going through cycles of depression, drinking, and whatever else. At one time I worked two full time jobs, instead of saving for the future I would waste it away by falling into debt, and it seemed my life would not mount into anything. I was in a SERIOUS PROBLEM OF ADDICTION, HANG UPS ABOUT "WHITNEY", AND ANGER. This was not good, not good at all!! Something had to be done.



In 2003, I moved to Henderson, Nevada. I took transfers from both jobs. I thought that just maybe all my problems would be left in California. The reality was that I still had the addiction, the hang ups, and worst was the cycles of serious depression. I came back to California and I hit "ROCK BOTTOM" by walking that suicidal path!!! The road to a physical DEATH. NOW I REALLY REALLY NEEDED HELP!! My other side fighting back that suicidal path was reaching to a friend to get me that help! My friend Julie who I met working at Southland Mall in 1989 SAVED ME. She gave me a hug and she told me she loved me more than I will ever know as a friend. DID GOD HAVE A HAND IN THIS??



I recovered, and my LIFE continued, along with, you guessed it, Alcoholism, hang ups. I needed to go back to church and get connected to my faith in God, but Where?



I searched the Internet. Since I worked At a Place called Creekside Shopping Center, I found Creekside Community Church in San Leandro, Ca. SO I went And met the pastor, and right away made a connection. The pastor's sermons made me think. It made me for once think who I am, and I FOUND GOD'S PRESENCE WORKING.



THIS IS WHERE GOD WANTED ME. I FOUND CELEBRATE RECOVERY! (http://www.celebraterecovery.com/) (AS of Sat 8/23/08, I been sober for 60 days and counting.)

THANK YOU LORD GOD! Thank You for showing me the way.



( TO Whom ever I have Offended, caused you serious hurt by my addiction to alcohol, I apologize!! I ask for your Forgiveness, and offer to make amends. I have no excuses and I only blame myself for my actions dictated by my addictions. I PRAY FOR YOUR RECOVERY). Tim

LIFE CHANGES / MY ALCOHOL ADDICTION Part 1

Romans 12:2

"Do not conform any longer to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is -His good, pleasing and perfect will."

Proverbs 20:1

"Wine is a mocker and beer a brawler; whoever is led astray by them is not wise."

Have you ever experienced Life changing event? Have you ever been confined, trapped or led astray by someone? (That someone being Alcohol.)

If you answered yes to both of these questions, Please read on.

Alcoholism defined as 1: continued excessive or compulsive use of alcoholic drinks.

I will spare you the entire life story. I started drinking when I was 16 years old, a sophomore in High School. The drinking continued through the end High School and into the college years. Once in college I met a lot of new friends. I abused Alcohol even more, it made me happy and it felt good.

While in College I met a life long friend her name was 'Whitney." I made an impression on Whitney when a verbal argument broke out in the cafeteria. I intervened on her behalf when "The creep" from the middle east had a chair over his head and was about to hit "Whitney" over her head with it. That single act---- Was the Foundation to the friendship, something I will never forget and would do it again In a heart beat if I ever saw that kind of violence on a female again. (that happened 20 years ago.)

Despite my drinking, "Whitney", She was a true friend, a very kind person with people skills. She was always there for me and I was there for her.

As the years past, I married my wife Stephanie and raised a family. Things went okay at first. I drank, and drank, marriage problems developed between Stephanie and I. I became angry, and developed a temper. 1994 seemed to be the year it all came crashing down. The Security job was stressful. I talked three of my friends out of a suicidal crisis, NOT FUN!!:( I was drained from the experience.) I started to lose contact with God, I became depressed, angry, and was drinking more than ever.

The following year, 1995. That's when I lost all my friends to alcohol. I was the most feared person starting with "Whitney" followed by my wife, my children, and whoever else. This "Someone" named alcohol ruined my life, my reputation, placed distrust among family and friends. This was all my fault, I am the blame for allowing it to happen AND allowing it to continue to happen.

IN MY NEXT BLOG I WILL SHARE WHAT I DID TO CORRECT IT.

{TO WHOM EVER READS THIS. I Would I like to offer amends to anyone I have seriously offended because of my anger caused by my alcoholism. I have no excuse for my actions. I offer forgiveness to anyone who has offended me.}

Tim