LIFE CHANGES / MY ALCOHOL ADDICTION PART 2

Psalm 107:13-14

"Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress.
He brought them out of darkness and the deepest gloom and broke away their chains."









In part one I talked about how my addiction of alcohol got started, how long it continued, made friends, raised my family, and then it came all crashing down at once. I lost it all! I lived in denial from this problem for a number of years, living a life of dishonesty, isolation, and feeling depressed. I lost my closest friends, It seemed I was alone in the world. My relationship with GOD? I did not think I had one.



I continued to live in denial, going through cycles of depression, drinking, and whatever else. At one time I worked two full time jobs, instead of saving for the future I would waste it away by falling into debt, and it seemed my life would not mount into anything. I was in a SERIOUS PROBLEM OF ADDICTION, HANG UPS ABOUT "WHITNEY", AND ANGER. This was not good, not good at all!! Something had to be done.



In 2003, I moved to Henderson, Nevada. I took transfers from both jobs. I thought that just maybe all my problems would be left in California. The reality was that I still had the addiction, the hang ups, and worst was the cycles of serious depression. I came back to California and I hit "ROCK BOTTOM" by walking that suicidal path!!! The road to a physical DEATH. NOW I REALLY REALLY NEEDED HELP!! My other side fighting back that suicidal path was reaching to a friend to get me that help! My friend Julie who I met working at Southland Mall in 1989 SAVED ME. She gave me a hug and she told me she loved me more than I will ever know as a friend. DID GOD HAVE A HAND IN THIS??



I recovered, and my LIFE continued, along with, you guessed it, Alcoholism, hang ups. I needed to go back to church and get connected to my faith in God, but Where?



I searched the Internet. Since I worked At a Place called Creekside Shopping Center, I found Creekside Community Church in San Leandro, Ca. SO I went And met the pastor, and right away made a connection. The pastor's sermons made me think. It made me for once think who I am, and I FOUND GOD'S PRESENCE WORKING.



THIS IS WHERE GOD WANTED ME. I FOUND CELEBRATE RECOVERY! (http://www.celebraterecovery.com/) (AS of Sat 8/23/08, I been sober for 60 days and counting.)

THANK YOU LORD GOD! Thank You for showing me the way.



( TO Whom ever I have Offended, caused you serious hurt by my addiction to alcohol, I apologize!! I ask for your Forgiveness, and offer to make amends. I have no excuses and I only blame myself for my actions dictated by my addictions. I PRAY FOR YOUR RECOVERY). Tim