This past week has been one phenomenal week! After last Friday 10/24/08 SJSU Game where I met my friend to watch the game till today 10/31/08 Halloween, I've seen an improvement within myself, I don't get upset over anything, 2 Timothy 22-26 "Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will."
It's remarkable how the healing power of you LORD can do!!! Another bible verse that comes to mind that I have totally forgotten : It Comes from LUKE 6:35
But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked."
Yes! " Without expecting anything back.." I think this was my heart of my depression issues because I would expect something in return that never materialized.
Everyone, including families, personal friends and even co-workers and formal co-workers have their "issues." Just recently after some deep thought of e-mail exchanges I have come to realization that even two people who live completely different life styles can be friends without influencing each other. Years ago people who I just described through this friend would pull me down, use my kindness to their advantage to buy drugs in East Oakland at 2:00am, give them rides, loan them money, It was a disaster!!! TODAY It's a completely different tune, I have isolated my feelings, accepted the facts, THE TRUTH and I can HONESTLY SAY It does not bother me. I ALLOW GOD/ JESUS CHRIST With The Power of The HOLY SPIRIT TO BE CENTER OF MY LIFE NOT THE PART OF MY LIFE, THE CENTER OF MY LIFE!!! THIS IS WHAT I CALL ESTABLISHED BOUNDARIES BETWEEN TWO FRIENDS. I CAN'T CHANGE MY FRIEND, My formal co-worker, ONLY God/Higher Power can do that. You see about 7 to 10 years Ago I thought I can change people, and that's where I found trouble!!! I've LEARNED, And God has Taught me well through my personal friend that I am using as example.
Five years ago I was at my LOWEST POINT AFTER MY BOUT OF SUICIDAL TENDENCIES, NOT a Place to be, believe me you do not want to be there!! I Lost Trust to all my friends, family, and even God If you can believe that one. So how do you recover? I used My hobby Amateur radio to start communicating on the airwaves. To get my mind motivated, I had to learn Let go some of my pain, hurts and hangups. However I was still going through Bouts of Alcoholism withdraw at the same time adjusting my anti depressant medications. It was a eye opening experience!! But God Did Not Stop there, Oh no He keeps going..
Take this bible passage from Philippians 1:6
"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
Do you see What God/ Higher Power is doing?
With that God Bless,
Please E-mail me Tim_kc6qlv@hotmail.com Or leave your comments, I would sure like your feed back, Thank you!! Your Brother in Christ Tim
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